A portion of a letter from Joseph Alleine (1633-1668), to a dear friend, lamenting the lack of deep love in his heart for Christ:
Oh, the deep enmity that there is in my heart against Christ, notwithstanding all the personal excellencies that I know to be in him, and all the benefits I have received from him! He shed his heart's blood for me, and yet I do begrudge any service for him.
Life and Letters of Joseph Alleine, by Rev. Richard Baxter, Theodosia Alleine, and others, with a new introduction by Joel R. Beeke and Herb Samworth, Reformation Heritage Books, reprinted in 2003, p. 280.